Moving East & Moving Forward
A lot of things as usual are on my mind. I guess the anxiety
of moving back home after my divorce and graduation this spring comes to mind. As happy as I
am getting that poison out of my life, I am afraid to start over. Being an only
child, I have always been taken care of, even when my one, or both, of my parents
were not around. Someone was always there to take care of me, whether it was
financially, emotionally, or physically.
Well, no one is taking care of me this time. Especially after
my two and a half month stay over the summer with my mother and her new wife,
moving out, and stay the remaining weeks with my in-laws, I would rather not go
there again. So, I have begun my apartment search for a one bedroom or studio
apartment, hopefully under a thousand dollars a month (yes, it is that
expensive in Maryland sadly). I definitely want one in safe neighborhood,
though, and a balcony, walk-in closet, and spacious kitchen. But, first things
first. I need to save up money, so I volunteered to take on a second tutoring
job, even though my schedule is extremely daunting already. So, I now go to
class five days a week, work seven days a week, observe in the Children’s
School two hours a week, tutor at a local middle school a few times a month,
and I am the secretary and treasurer of an organization on campus. Not to
mention I still homework, essays, projects, readings, and exams to do as well.
But, my freedom and independence later is worth my exhaustion now.
As I was saying before I went on my mini tirade, I am moving
back to my home state. Most likely, I will be driving my 2001 Hyundai Sonata
with my two best friends, Dani and Kyle, across the country, traveling thousands
of miles during the course of a week. I think I am either insane or just will
need that long of a break from reality. I think it will be fun though.
So, while I am saving money and building my credit score
(since I never had a credit or a need for credit until this past summer), I am
getting together my résumé and searching for potential jobs that I could make
at least $25,000. So far, I have a lot of daycare and preschools on my list. If
the worst happens, which would probably be working retail again, I will move
with someone who has a bedroom and bathroom to spare until I can be fully on my
own.
I am just trying to remain positive about my situation. Life
gave me lemons, so I am painting them gold. I guess that is just my Piscean
optimism rearing its annoying head again. With that, I am not spending another frivolous
penny – except for my trip home in two months and my birthday this February –
and will be asking for money for my apartment and stuff to go in it for Christmas
this year. It will be hard, but I know I can do anything I truly set my mind to…I
actually feel a lot better after writing this blog post. Go figure.
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